The Wold is Mine

So this latest post on Stuff White People like captures so well how I feel about study abroad and taking a year off.

But, honestly deep down inside I actually really want to do just what the post describes.
Aside from the constant e-mails about how much better the food is and enlightenment.
I know, I'm a big ole hypocrite and it sounds silly being inspired by a movie(eye roll) but Benjamin Button really made me want to travel and do things with my young, powerful, and sexy body while I can. Carpe diem, seize the day!
I may do this after graduating, before going into teaching, I don't know when.

I've also been thinking about going a different direction at Evergreen. Not entirely, I want to have enough credits in history while gaining some skills in acting, film, and media production. This could mean staying in school longer.

Oh boy.

She Makes My Heart Go Beat'n

Last night I asked out a girl on a whim. She works at the Greenery and she's super cute. I wrote on a napkin: "would you like to get coffee with me sometime?" followed by my number and name. I got that feeling, like right before I was about to jump off a cliff into a lake last summer. I forced my body to jump even though my mind was screaming NO! I jumped I handed her the folded napkin and went back to my seat. After a couple minutes she came and sat across from me. What I got was kind of mixed response but leaning to the good side.
She said she was very busy and had two jobs and didn't have time for a relationship.
I responded, "I just want to have a cup of coffee with you."
"Okay," she said. "Well I have your number"
I couldn't stop smiling and my heart was going crazy. She said bye to me as I left. So I might sound crazy but I kinda have this superpower. My power is extremely accurate "gut feelings." There are some people I can tell I will not like and some that I know I'll get along with greatly. I have been wrong before(Maxime and Vegan Andy). With greenery girl I have this overwhelming good feeling about her. Well I hope she calls.

I was at Barns & Nobel today. I really wanted to get a Batman comic, but resisted. I need to find some more books for my Civil War contract. Suggestions? I got some Bukowski poetry, The People Look Like Flowers at Last, and a map of Washington(Atlas was $22 bucks, lame). This is preparation for a trip this spring quarter with Hetty. We both want to do something amazing on a budget. We're thinking of camping in Eastern Washington. I hope I'm reading Blood Meridian during this.

I also make one o my bosses red in the face last week. That was amazing. It was about them painting over the murals in the dorms. Specifically the ones prospies and their parents see. Fuck that noise.

This weekend Tasha and Matt are gone, this = lame. They are two corner stones in my circle of friends and fun. What the hell am I supposed to do now! Did they ever think of that!

That Snowball is Made of Fire and Death!

Hilary won the New Hampshire Primary, DAMN. McCain's alright for a Republican, I guess.

Monday night I was waken up to my window neighbor. "Charlie it's snowing!" I called Jai thinking she'd want to know, she already did but came out to watch on the balcony with me. Suddenly we were bombarded by snowballs. I used the snowball shrapnel to fight back, but soon ran out of arsenal. Therefore I bundled up and headed to war on their own ground. The attackers were none other than my fellow RA comrades Colin, Julian, and Tez. I came out of the back exit, fashioned some snowballs and made my move. I managed to break their team and turn it into a wild west shootout, every greener for themselves. As I took aim at Colin's face I saw several of my residents coming out, but instead of standing at their fearless leaders side they attempted to pummel me with snowballs of icy death. I used matrix bullet time moves and flung snowballs at Randy Johnston speed. At the end of the night I, along with everyone else involved was soaking and cold. I made peace and celebrated with my 5th floor comrades over hot cocoa.

Well to my avail all wasn't well in RAD services land. One RA was upset, and turned into a dragon because their beauty sleep was interrupted by our happiness. My boss got wind of this and wanted to show what little crap shit people we are for "getting caught up in the moment." Of course she dropped the "I should fire you" bomb that she always tosses around way to easy. Fuck that noise! I have had all sorts of jobs in my 2 decades. Dish washing, fast food, landscaping, gas station, working for a boat company. I understand doing work and doing it well for my earn. With this job there is no clock in and out then go on with your life. It follows you to every action. Well god damn it if i want to have a snowball fight at midnight, then I'm gonna do it. Life is to short to think about some worthless job. I'm gonna try to hang in there this year, mostly so I don't end up in Camp Quixote!

So that left me in a bad mood. I suck at taking care of living things. So far this year I've frozen a fish, killed half and cactus and torture an aloe vera plant. I decided to give it up to someone with more of a green thumb then I. One parent left it and another tried to care for it then gave it back. I picked off a dead chunk and without thinking kind of lung it. In all my luck it made a one in a million shot and hit her in the face. I could see the disbelief in her eyes. I felt horrible. I tried to mumble out an apology but the elevator doors closed. Fuck, I could've handled that so much better. How do I always get in these situations? I feel like a walking disaster so much! Master Of Disaster is what they should call me. I guess it keeps a blog interesting.

I'm doing an Independent Learning Contract this quarter. This means I don't have class or much structure of any kind. This scares me because I am a chronic procrastinator. So I really want to travel. I always win the who's traveled the least contest. I thought I would have the chance to do this, because of a stroke of luck on financial aid, but it looks like I'm getting less than expected. I've had several travel dreams floating around my head....
Europe - Do it all, problem unrealistic in funds
Ireland/UK - go back to my roots, problem $$$
Costa Rica - sun, beaches, jungles, speaking Spanish. I could do this WOOFING thing and with the exchange rate it would be easier on the $
Roadtrip Across America, it's easy to find people excited to do this with me(Tasha, Donovan) so there could be shared funds, I could also turn this into a contact. Problem! I have plenty of credit in U.S. History, it would be great to see America, but I really have an itching for international travel.

When I got back from the Reef tonight I found stretchy dinosaurs in front of my door. This made me super happy. So if who ever did it is a reader I thank you so much and want to give you a huge.